The lord is the everlasting God , he created all the world
He never grows tired or weary .
No one understand his thoughts .
He strengthens those who are weak and tired , even those who are young can grow weak.
Young people can fall exhausted ,
but those , who trust in the lord for help will find their strength renewed .
They will rise on wings like eagles , they will run and not get weary , they will walk and not grow weak
damn it . don't know need to wait how long for this feeling to go away . off and on moodswings . off and on guilty feelings . off and on feelings of fear. why .
waiting and waiting . I think esther knows it best . The feeling of constantly wondering how other people look as us think of us etc etc . How i wish to be like some people . Its okay . Life has to move on , stop being so pessimistic .
Saturday, December 26, 2009.
MIRACLE HAPPENS - 10:59 PM.
never care for someone too much .
Friday, December 25, 2009.
MIRACLE HAPPENS - 7:30 AM.
Woke up at 9.45 today and was so damn tired . Tution from 10-12 , after that watched documentary " back from hell " that qiuru introduced. Wanted to sleep cause i was damn sleepy . But in the end drank coffee and talked to mom instead. Met Shili and passed her her christmas present , hahaha , SHE LOVES IT . Right????? Went to novena ... followed by sticky then ........ bugis junction. Alot alot alot alot alot of people . Took 851 back to Yishun , home to take camera and went to meet Jersey . Wanted to get the photos but .... only tomorrow can get .
:D byebye
Thursday, December 24, 2009.
MIRACLE HAPPENS - 9:22 PM.
didn't know why would i give that kind of attitude in church . first time in my whole life i have been so rude .
what a happy christmas eve .
Last year's one was so good .
and this year's .. speechless .
but anyway the beginning was great .
It just ended in a bad way .
Wednesday, December 23, 2009.
MIRACLE HAPPENS - 8:23 AM.
Don't know if i'm able to confide in anyone like before again . Desperately trying to find someone who understands .. Bugged by guilt these few nights , and this kind of feeling really sucks .
went out with yiying today and ling ling yesterday . walking walking and walking . Just hoping that all these damn feelings will go away slowly don't stop smiling .
Monday, December 21, 2009.
MIRACLE HAPPENS - 8:12 AM.
Just talked to My BFF . Kind of understand a few things , thanks many . so ya , now things are abit clearer but i'm still feeling abit down. I'm sorry for thinking this way , i know you care , but still . so ya , but now i somehow feel its my fault for feeling this way cause i know you've tried your best <3
I'm going out with ling-a-ling tomorrow. Long time since i went out with her (: Clarke quay for sweets , orchard for shopping and of course for christmas presents ^^ so i'm kind of looking forward.
Have to wake up at 6.30 tomorrow though . Yawns .
did i mention i love letters? They're words of acceptance and love. did i mention i really hate feeling guilty? and did i mention i'm feeling it now?? I'm really sorry . damn , really hope someone can hear me out .
k . Byebye. Probably going to go through my history texts and have a good rest.
But in actual fact , i don't feel like sleeping at all .
its the 22 of December. Let's see what homework i have completed . 1 comprehension? All the meanings? E.MATHS , A. MATHS , and what ? Lol
I think i confirm don't have the time to finish it. Hope i'll wake up soon enough to realise that next year IS important. What the hell is wrong with me?
so ... i kind of realised that some people are scary BEWARE .
Sunday, December 20, 2009.
MIRACLE HAPPENS - 6:55 AM.
SORRY AMANDA! was supposed to go for cchy concert today ... and ..... i got the message wrong. Friend sent me singapore concert hall and i see it as school what a big difference and i don't even know how i interpret it . Really . I know it sounds stupid and that i'm like acting or what , but i really really see wrongly. whats wrong .
K ......... I just got back home .
and ronghui told me that the cell members are asking about me . I'm remembered ! LOL . so okay , if anyone from my cell is reading this, I'm going back on the 24th :D for stomp . haha , and i realised there's iceskating.....followed by cell retreat . Maybe i'm just not ready .
I saw jasmine and lixuan today and jasmine said i slim down! ah , happy for awhile and then realised that im actually wearing a dark colour dress. so no wonder i appear to be slimmer .
